Reflections

I was on the phone with my mom yesterday and she said, well tomorrow (today) is the start of Lent, and it sounds like it is a good time to do reflecting. I have started to reflect on certain things in my life. First of all, I am hugely independent. For some reason over the past 2 and 1/2 months i have thought that i am so much better with someone else in my life to share everything with. Boy was i wrong. Once the "connection" is gone you're left with nothing. But that nothing, is a whole lot of something. I have my family, friends, and so many other things that make me who i am. No guy changes that, he just helps me realize it. This doesn't change the fact that this is the EXACT reason i never let down my guard... for exact purposes, that i have gotten hurt so many times in the past. It also makes it way tough for the next guy to eventually let me put my guard down. But also, Karma is a bitch, i've been the one on the other end too. It happens, life happens. I haven't been sad, at all. Maybe like 3 tears actually haha but i've really just been mad. It frustrates me that out of the blue these things happen. I know i'm not perfect but come on, things were just going good!! or so i thought? 

Whatever, it's over and i have some friends back because of it. Things are fine with me, it hurts like no other that someone can take advantage of me so easily, and the fact i let them. There is so much i wish i could say, but i can't. Or maybe i can a little bit? haha I know everyone says this but, i'm better off, and for seriously, i believe it! That's what's cool, is i know that i'm a freaking sweet person, i'm funny, nice, caring, will go to the ends of the earth for someone else, i'm reliable, etc. But i guess some people don't realize it.. or maybe the connection wasn't really there. All i have to say is i'm an awesome catch and whoever doesn't realize that has something wrong with them.  Ill leave you from this post with some lyrics from Pink's "So What"

So, So what i'm still a rockstar

i got my rock moves and i don't need you

and guess what, i'm having more fun

and now that we're done i'm gonna show you tonight

I'm alright, I'm just fine and you're a tool 

So, so what i'm still a rockstar

i got my rock moves, and i dont want you tonight

:)

The End.